Life is a perspective and how you look at it!

Woah! I just had a serious conversation! I realized that life is indeed a matter of your own perspective! I just wish that life isn’t easily be judged but instead letting it go and supporting whatever someone is projecting. I think that we all have reasons to what we are doing and that we should respect. I am a happy person and one way for me to celebrate happiness is buying new NEW THINGS! And I don’t know what’s up with that or who influenced me while growing up! Let’s just say I grew up who expects something new in everything especially when there’s an up coming event! I don’t necessarily mean an event like a big party scene but I can also say that events like when a friend’s coming home or something like that. For me to expect something special needs a preparation. People may think I’m so material, so “pa-porma”, vain, party goer by hobby, picky w/people. Of course those are the people who doesn’t know me that much!! And I feel sad when it lingers my thought because it doesn’t go or imply that way. It actually made me feel useless or dumb for being like this in their own interpretation. I have my reasons and definitely it’s more than that. It’s me feeling good on the inside and out to actually see someone who I love or is significant into my life. I wish those people would see me that way instead of just the façade they mistakenly seeing at me. If I am to put myself in their shoes it would definitely go otherwise. I treat and respect everyone equally and I do not simply judge. “Do not judge the book by its cover”, yes I agree to this famous quote. I mean what could be their possible reason to judge simply because of what I wear and what I do to myself. So maybe you are thinking it’s all because of what I wear and how I look that made me write this whatever blog? I say to you it’s a NO. It’s more than that. It’s me seeing people how judgemental they are and how they perceive a person and welcome them in their life w/their own BASIS! A pitiful BASIS! So I guess that life is a matter of perspective. I wear this and I do that because I am happy and I am sharing it to someone dear to me and not just being like that for the sake of impressing people around me. I am definitely not that and that is my perspective or outlook in life. doesn't sound negative right? yes this is me. To end this boring blog, I can just say to some people to just fuck off and start minding your own businessesssss after all it isn’t your life that you are judging but someone else’s and that someone else is me and I am proud of myself and definitely higher on your rank. Start living it up coz I believe you only live once so make the most of it. Peace out and cheers =)

IT'S CHRISTMAS!

December 17,18 and today December 19, 2008! i officially felt the spirit of christmas! i thought chirtmas this year in a tropical country would be hot but now i just love it! the weather outside is already cold and im just inspired in everything! the breeze outside and touches my face made me feel all the love in the world! i dont know why but i guess this is what they call THE SPIRIT OF CHRISTMAS and it keeps me humble!

December 17, 2009 was my last duty exposure in the hospital. im so glad to have the most relax duty ever for being a Practicing Clinical Instructor! what made it more special is that it started my morning and ended my AM shift so cold. it was drizzling outside. how i wish it was a snow but that was just a wish i guess (haha). Being a PCI made me feel so "above" or should i say superior! i handled one 3rd year student and im lucky since she wasnt that type of student who doesnt know what to do or very dependent to the Ci. it was fun for my part because it made my responsibility less of what it should be. around 12pm we had our lunch and again it was cold. it was only a half day duty since the 3rd year students that we handled has to present their Case Presentation. among the PCI i was the most generous, accomodating and NON-THREATENING to the students unlike some of my colleagues. i know my 3rd year student was happy for it. during their case presentation i just couldnt wait for the shift to get over with because i just wanna end the school thing and start my xmas break and start shopping all i need for christmas!

December 18, 2008 is a thursday here in Philippines. it was cold! its really christmas i am definitely feeling it.this the day where i wanna spend for myself. but instead i shared it w/my tita and niece! we went shopping coz my tita asked me a favor to accompany her to buy some gifts to her subordinates. im just blessed having her and i ended the day so successful coz i was able to buy the things i need for christmas. not to mention, clothes to wear for xmas (hahaha).

December 19, 2008! my last ncm lecture in 2008!! it wasnt really that serious lecture since everyone is very excited to just end the lecture and go out and start enjoying the xmas break. our CI was so generous and made the lecture more fun we just had a game in connection to our concept lecture! by 11am we were dismissed and i, together w/some of my classamtes spend a little time and ate at space burger just near davao doc hospital! again the breeze of air contained love and excitement!

Truly christmas is something we should always enjoy and cherish. Truly God lives now since the day he was born on this month of December!

i cant wait to party, see my friends and most especially spend more time w/my family and dog too!

SOON!!

i never actually felt being a student really in my life and be motivated to just finish my studies. its funny that when im about to graduate now it is infact the only times i could feel what a student really is wherein to study, time management, and prioritizing. i wasnt like this ever since but i think that i just needed to act and feel how it really is, FOR THE LAST TIME, to be a student! YES! a student who reads and not party and other side lines! this is me for the last remaining days of my stay in college to act being a student. i am so happy just thinking that few months from now i'll be finishing my responsibility as a student. it wasnt like yesterday wherein i used to wear ateneo's shorts, or not to mention mini shorts for the boys uniform! haha! then followed up by a blue long pants then finally when reached my high school it was upgraded by a khaki colored pants! life of being a student is really fun! in Grade school i was one of the victims owning a stroller bag! which after many years i admit i never liked it coz its heavy, since we dont have an elevator at that building and it was like on the 3rd floor to finally stroll my STROLLER OMG BAG! but since it was a trend during those days well atleast i wasnt out of what is latest! it makes me laugh out loud just thinking how loser and corny i was before! totally cheeeezy! but in Grade school i value the sense of leadership, not to mention i became a candidate for PRESIDENCY for the CLASS LEADERS ELECTION! go OBAMA! my god lolz!!! then indeed i became the class president for 3 periods or like terms! i must say that majority or i think it was everybody who voted for me just voted for the reason that i am one big laughing stock and a joke once declared being a president! weee hahaha! a friend of mine nominated me and she was indeed influencial and crazy in her nature in our class! definitely i am not the type of person who is responsible, smart, or whatever quality a leader has but i think that time it molded me to become one which i believed that i am still carrying it now in my college life, only a discreet not obvious leader looking. i must say i can be a leader but as much as possible i am staying away of being as such! so in Grade school this is only a few of the many memories i could only share to you guys and gals. then came high school i can say that high school life is indeed a memory that is going to last forever! what happened in high school totally rocked my world and contributed a lot to who and what i am today! high school is a blast! it was like me getting out of my shell and just live it up! and i say i lived it well! i dont know what came into me that now a days i just think of the past and the good memories that was attached to it. i am the type of person who live life to the fullest and today i am valuing life more than before. MUCH MORE! as a graduating student i just couldnt think of any but wonder what my future is and how i'd live in it. i hope to be in the places where i want to be. i wanna be someone new and start all over again. it's not me saying that i am erasing my past and even the friends i have here nor isolating myself. it's me saying that i want more to life! human as we are we will never be contented what we have right now in our life. it is our perfect and dyanamic nature to seek and continue seeking. okay so ill just end this blog giving you the bottom line of this blog and it is- I AM GRADUATING SOON AND IT IS GIVING ME TREMENDOUS, AMAZING FEELING and at the same time it is looking forward for a bright, exciting future that awaits me! if God's will He will give me my hopes in my future =)

UNDER PRESSURE

So before reading this blog. please click this music video w/c im listening while making this blog. you too should listen to this while reading:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNGQor3dED8

hi. welcome to my "ISSUES" blog again. this blog is about me and the changes that has occured to me. so just last night(Oct. 25) i went out to see some of my friends. the feeling i get wasnt good and i was hoping that id go home atleast saying to myself that i had fun. i used to be a party addict before. it wasnt just all about party really. i would define it as something beyond than that. its being w/friends, meeting new friends and over all the SATISFYING GOODVIBEZ FUN I GET! that's really all about it.

now a days and after years. some people do change. as for me i dint change. its just that this time i think that seeing people, especially my close friends, who has issues just gave me the feeling of confusion. issues that they couldnt handle right. it made me confused because what was before wasnt the exact view i am seeing now. it is destructing to see them that way. i am destructed in a way that i couldnt be what i used to be before, being in my Hyper All Out Mode! because the feeling i get wasnt fun. but i must say that its okay with me to be that way than acting fun when the truth is i am not having one. some people say its part of growing up. well i guess a part of it YES!. but for me its really the people you are with. when you have goodvibez friends nothing could go wrong. i mean basing on my experience id be more effective having fun when w/this kind of fabulous people. i could even spend and just spend on something for as long as i am having fun. but today, oh em geeeeee i cudnt even take out my wallet and spend on something because ..why would i spend on something when theres nothing worth on spending? and the people im with isnt that in their normal state too right? well to some people maybe they wouldnt care at all. well i used to be like that before. but now all i can think of is for me to just graduate soon and work. and go to other place and their party! i just hope that my friends will realize more to life. and not be trapped in a box w/their undying, shallow, cycle issues or problems in life that they tend to forget their friends they are with.

so yea i am under pressured not because of their issues in life. but rather i am under pressured that they wouldnt even realize or even be concerned to someone who they are with. i mean whatever their problem is should only be once said and felt. they shouldnt spoil the night away just because of the craps in their life. i believe that we all have problems in life but it is only ourselves who can find solution in it. nobody is going to be there and fix, clean your shit. a friend will be there for you but the choices has to be made only by ourselves. alcohol wont change anything. sex wouldnt change anything to escape something you think it could. drugs is never a remedee. etc.. etc.. =)

it was the longest time. i finally again touched the sands of the beach

October 19, 2008 kang celebrated her bday w/us. A beach somewhere in Samal. I am so happy and excited to go the beach. I cant wait to just plunge into the beach and just walk barefoot. I dont know.. but i've been really longing to go to the beach. Maybe because i was deprived by it due to my social occurrences and i need to be somewhere quiet. I was always out during the night only before. I used to party a lot that's why i am more active during the night but i guess when i entered 3rd year college and now almost graduating, having my major subjects changed my lifestyle. I just dont want to go out partying and drinking anymore but something else. I know that being in the beach is one of those things that i am looking for and now that i was able to go to the beach it was really a fullfiling feeling! I just loved every single moment of it. The weather cooperated to us plus i have two so GOODVIBEZ friends who i was with. Life is really great when having great companies. No issues at all. Just enjoying God's gift and life itself.

farewell =(

Lovely and i met when we were in grade 6 and till then our friendship lasted. the original group was aira,cherry,lovely,yuki,jana, and rusty. i am proud to say that i am belonged to this group. i must say my group is really different from our other batchmates group coz we are pretty much diverse. we werent that climbing-to-the-top kinda like group. instead we are just enjoying what is for the moment and respect each others feelings and interests. we may have different interests, likes and even personalities but it's just amazing that, though not as intact as before but still a few of us remained, we still manage to be together. during high school we are the kind of group, who unlike other group, isnt that together most of the time really but still we consider as something normal w/our friendship. i like the simplicity of my group. and i believe whatever i am now they are part of all the progress that changed in me. Lovely was the "flexible" and overly ENERGETIC ANIMAL (haha) in the group who i cudnt take bringing in a public place coz for sure it would really be a mess just laughing and losing my stature of being a normal person. i missed those days. lovely is really a fun friend and damn she farts the most among us. hahahaha!

October 18,20 2008 these are the dates were this pictures are taken. i am making the most of it seeing my friend lovely who is leaving on the 21st of october to Sweden. this is also the time that i should be making up w/ lovely and her kid gaby since i only get to see them during my semestral break, christmas break. i am astonished seeing my inaanak grew and this time can really walk! i must say it sucks to feel that someone is leaving. i really hate when someone leaves especially when that someone is very close to my heart. so the thing is what really motivated me to blog this is the experience and realizations i have during these times. time flies really fast and now i am almost graduating and everyone too is leaving. me and lovley was separated a long time but indeed friends are really friends despite the distance and shortcomings. before she left ive seen true friends who would really dare to find time despite the hectic schedule just to atleast see that friend and say our farewell. for me its really uplifting seeing that kind of heart and attitude of a person. i think it is also a sign that we have become matured. and i would conclude that people who has that attitude goes to show how genuine all his/her action in showing her being a true a friend or a person in general. me and aira really made an effort to see lovely and her kid! aira has a pm shift call center and i have my own business too. cherry and yuki is at manila and they made effort too to see lovely and they even fetch lovely to the domestic airport and accompany lovely to NAIA for her connecting flight. and now i saw lovely pix in Sweden. i just wish her nothing but all the best. that she may prosper to whatever endeavors she has in life.

old picture of my original tropa:

who's my dream girl fantasy?

ok before anything else i am not a pervert posting this two-pieced sexy model adriana lima! so just today someone asked me when i'm planning to have a girlfriend? i just simply said. when i have the money and time. then a friend asked me who's my dream girl fantasy? well i know who and this is her. she's my ANGEL. aside from her physical gift, her personality outshines and that's what i like the most =) blah blah blah.. just blogging and sharing... yada yada



on the other hand, i was thinking since adriana is too busy ramping wearing one of those holly shit expensive heavy tight diamond lingeries ....why wont i think of someone else close to me who WHO..WHo well i can also consider as sexy as her. im so fortunate that all these years this sexy babe is w/me and also taking up nursing course! oh shit! presenting after adriana lima COMES KARLA JEAN DAVID!!! kang hahaha weee i think this is fun and yea sexy ka nmn tlga ah! again presenting - - ever gorgeous caliente flaming @#%$^!!